Tuesday, August 19th.

Hey world.

THE GREATEST THINGS IN LIFE IS TO LOVE AND BE LOVED IN RETURN

This few days has been long, dreadfull & lonely. I just don't know why. :(
But to keep me going, I have some songs that kept me company through the day.

"Lucky" by Jason Mraz Ft. Colbie Cailat & "Mr Therapy Man" by Justin Nozuka.

But i just like Lucky the best as for now. Soothing. Calm.

Lucky by Jason Mraz Ft. Colbie Cailat

Do you hear me,

I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea

To an island where we'll meet

You'll hear the music fill the air

I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keeps spinning round

You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love in every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I'm Back!

It's been quite some time since i last ever post somethings here. Honestly, during the "disappearence", I waslazy to post anything here. Anyway, I'm back & its going to be a new, fresh blog once again(apart from my previous post before this).

Looking back at the past, so many things had changed. The people around me and myself of course. Generally people DO changed; for good or worst. As about me, I can't judge myself, but i do think i'm changing to a good way. hurmm..

Anyway, I hope you guys know I've already cut my hair. That was so long ago. Since March i guess. I regret though cutting my hair. But on lighter note, my short hair seems to bring my face out and shines my eyes(even though I know my eyes is freakishly small.duh). Haha. But i just miss my hair still. That kinda give my own personality and attentions. :) I've made my mind to grow out my hair back. Takes about 7 month to acheive that emo hair. Overall, just miss the emos.

Now, whats in my mind? Im just thinking about things i'm missing badly since i step to this gay scene. It's not that i don't fancy it. Just that somehow, it gonna bores me. During the past month have been challenging. Relationship, friends, bitching around & OMG the "gay slangs & accents." I just wish i can turn back time. Coming out to my sexuality is a good thing but as soon as u began mixing with some others(queers), you might be in this situation where I am facing now. Even now I'm happily attached with my love, sometime I will feel insecure with the people surrounding me. To me i just don't give a heck cos i know what i want and doing. hurm. Have u ever been in a situation where u will be stuck between your friends and your love one and yourself. I know I did. I don't wish to lose my close friends & my cutie of course. But at the end of day, you just know you're going to break somebodys heart. When friends say they understand, but they don't really did. Sometime i just shun myself avoiding them. not because i really wanted to but I just want to have a fresh and some time alone. I don't need many friends. I just need a couple of the best sincere ones. Someone who tries to understand & work out friendship, who gives proper sensible advise, who don't force you doing things you don't wanna do. A real friend will understand. I'm just sick having clubbing friends. I want to have those who can meet up for movies at the weekdays and a starbucks on the weekends. I'm not blaming my friends for all this. I just leave this to fate. No one is wrong in this. This the only place i can really outgo my feelings. I'm sensitive, emo brat. That makes everyone not to understand people like me. But its alright. As long i'm still in good terms with my friends and my bf, I'm happy. I'm just happy i've met danny. Up & downs, thick & thin we've gone through. The love is getting stronger. :)

I just hope God show the light to me. Where I should head for HE is the greatest of all and the almighty. Amin.