Back.

After so long of MIA, i decided to get back to blogging. Not that i miss blogging so much but i just have to blog because i want to. I just need to work my hands.

So much things happened in just a blink on an eye. Things changed & could never be the same. Yerp somethings change for good but some don't. Well things can always get "influence". Recently just had a photoshoot last Sunday. Was quite okay for me. Use my little sister & darren for the shoot. Great couple as they are very comfortable with each other. This is what, to me, is important. If you're comfortable with each other, you wouldn't feel arkward for doing the shooting. Weather was nice & photos are great. I just need to improve on my focusing & have to be strict. Yerp I know whatever. Done model photography as it was my interest. I would love to have professionals giving me some extra uselful tips. I do get criticsm but for a starter, I think I'm doing a wonderful job. Later I have to spend time editing the photos. Ah. SInce our editor quit on us, it's my duty to cover for her. Bitch.

Well, things had been great for us 3. Me, Ein & Izzy. We started talking like how we do before. We're still the best. I'm happy that we're back together sharing our life stories with each other once again. Had a nice time tonight you guys. :) Hope our friendship last.

After next week, I'm over with school. & that means I have lots of free time. Looking for a job. But employers are like so whatever this days.

Bye.

School.

I'm just letting my hands off from school. I just couldn't take it anymore. I hate school. I don't know why I enter school on the 1st place. I knowI don't like to study anymore. I mean for now. I'm just fucking stress right now. Exams next week. Couldn't be bothered. Life for me is coming to the end.

I don't know whats the hell wrong with me. I'm sick & will die sooner or later. I just can feel it. I want to leave this world. I cannot take it anymore. My brain is killing me. Help...

STAB!

Stab me! Stab me!
Stab me where it hurts. Stab me where all the pain will be gone. Stab me and leave me lying dead on the hardwood floor. Stab me 6 times so that you know I will sure to be gone.

The pain in my heart is unbearable. Its getting dirty contented with your love. Why does this have to happened? I'm just losing it all. It's all in my heart now. The sucrificated pain is just too much. I just want this to end..

Stab me! Stab me!
Stab me where its really, really hurts. Its nno use anymore. Stab me to death. Leave me alone may i come back to rest...

Nothing much.

People always just pretend to be happy when thery're not. It sad to see people behave this way. It's just how people try to be happy(when they are not) and to enjoy their sad life to the fullest. I'm just behaving this way. Pretending to be happy when I'm not. In front of friends & family. Just fucking want to care about people feelings but not myself. Well life..

I got an offer to work at 7-eleven at Ubi. A friend of mine Jjay offer this job. She said she wanted to be my trainer. So how? Just fucking can't decide. The pay is just too low. Sigh. Ahaha. I just need some money to buy prezzie for my sisters. I've been such a lousy brother all this years. Ashamed.

I tried to be a loner but i can't. I wonder why...hmm.