30 Seconds To Mars - The Kill

30 Seconds To Mars - The Kill

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Falling from myself
Falling for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down
What if I wanted to break...?

Hate my life.

I had not done the other 3 of my assignment. I like so fucked up. Sigh. I just have to spend this whole afternoon to do my Accounts & Communications. Boring.

I seriously hate my life even more now. I just have my reasons for it. I don't think living longer helps. Let me be the memories. Let me die in your hands. I'm just to easy. I hate myself. I fucking want to slit my fucking throat and be gone forever. I know its wrong but anger can lead to anything bad. I've been keeping my frustation for over sometime now. This time its just too much. I just fucking hate my fucking self. Sigh..

If I know this were to happened, I wouldn't let you into my miserable life. But now you left me, without a reason or whatsoever. Dismiss me like I'm a nobody. Promises made were truly white lies. Its insane to look at your smile, your tears you shed for me and the happiness you brought to me. Slitting doesn't help but killing does. Sigh. I just shouldn't accept you back. You're just the same like the others; Leaving me with no reasons.

I'm sorry about this post. I just need to let out my anger and frustation. I just need sometime alone. I don't have a real close friend really. I'm a loner. Death is going alone. I fucking lost myself right now. I cried if I have to. Theres just too many problems I have to face. I want to end all this right now. and forever..

Love today.

Love the weather today. Was so right. Could just spend my whole afternoon sleeping. But today, i just couldn't. I just need to get out of the house and enjoy my day. Well i have to go out though as I promise Ein that I will pass his photos CD. Both just hang out at Ubi. Talked stuffs till weather changed its course. Raining. Wind was important. Wouldn't like it if its raining but feel stuffy. Then off to B. Reservoir to meet Ain. Hang out, talked stuffs and laugh like usual self. Stress gone. But still ending life would be a better choice. Sigh. Brought down my 400D. So just "camwhored". Just spend my day with some friends. :)

On the lighter note, I've done my F&B management assignment. At last. Just spend my 2 1/2 hours in front of the desktop. Finished. Thanks to Fariza. My only "boleh harap" friend in school. Promised her free lunch later. Hmm. I've got school tomorrow and i have to go for it. Tired. It's like 9am. I'm so lazy to wake myself up. But have to for later. Have to pass up my assignment to my Italian teacher. After school, maybe will be doing accounts or group project with Ian, Eugene & Eunice. The slack lazy in class. But i think i'm the laziest amongst all. Well, I'm going to get over with my assignments and exams. Better off, I'm just looking forward to graduate.

An & me are like looking for a job. Seriously like I'm desperate for it. A friend of mine suggest we do our own business by renting a shop to sell food and nice-fried-chickens. Well why not? I just wan to do something while i'm still alive. Okay tired.

My Life A Dull.

Afternoon to readers. Couldn't sleep well last night due to some pain & itchiness. Pain from my neck. Its like burning intense. So painful and red.

I looked like i'm having some sort of illness. Sigh. Causes of this is because my dermovate cream had finished. So now the pain is coming back. So sad why I have to get all this. I just don't have the confidence about myself. Physically & mentally. Sigh.

I want to go out and enjoy the sun today. It's so boring staying here at home. Since I've stopped working, been going home early. My life is such a dull one.

Anyone going Zoukout on the 8th Dec? I've still not decided to go or not to go. Firstly I got no cash right now till end of this year. Reason? No job yet. Heh. Secondly, I need to find who is going if I have the cash. Sigh sigh sigh. If i can't go, I'll just wait for New Year Eve Countdown. Anyway, I'm still looking for a job. Anyone?

Any Job Offer?

Anyone have a job to offer? I'm really looking for a job. Part time it is. Want to try retail this time. Well, F&B wouldn't hurt either. As long as its a perfect job for me, good earnings, warm & friendly staffs and hotspot. Hah. Really in need of cash right now. Desperately.

Hadn't been working for 2 months now. Miss Earle Swensen's very much. I miss my collegues. Miss being runner. Miss having smoke breaks. Miss the chilling out after work with Fahmi, Agnes & Elaine. On top of that, miss the fountain. Ice-creams & drinks. Free flow. Miss.

I'm wanting to fill up for Part time staff at Starbucks Coffee at Compass Point. Should I go for it or should I not? haha. Tempting job for me. But if anybody got an attractive job offers for me, do message me here.

Why do i need a blog?

Why do I need a blog?

Firstly, having a blog lets me to express my inner feelings. What's in my mind lately. What's bothering me lately. Here, I can let out all my anger, frust, fear and happiness. Having a blog is much like having a journal; Let your feelings out.

Secondly, by having a blog, i can work out on my language. Each time you write, you'll get better. And of course it's nice to have those "Va-voom" words in your blog. Heh.

Lastly, here, I can post up music, photos and some of my works. It's generally acts as a media where I can share things online with people around the world. In other word, networking.